Thursday, November 16, 2006
8:40 PM
sian this isnt going to be a very nice entry.. coz not in a good mood..
first.. i feel like screaming coz i feel very upset.. but i dunno wad exactly wad's upsetting me.. i feel very confused and i dunno how to said it in words.. just one word... frustrated..
there's a lot of things i wan to do but i really dunno how to do.. i wan to ask pple for help.. but many will only divert the qn to some other stuff..
i really wan to finished my homework before i relaxed for the holidays next month.. but there's a lot of qn i dunno how to do and i dun feel like leaving it blank.. so i wan to ask pple.. but no one i noe will be able to help me.. coz no one started their homework yet.. even if i ask them to take out the homework.. they will just say.. "holidays had just started y do i need to start worrying bout them now? no use asking me de.. i had already switched off.. so i wun noe how to help u.." this kind of answers i've already heard a lot of times.. and have already feel sick of asking pple again.. coz i will be given the same answers all over again.. the only pple i can think of helping me.. is perhaps sook ba.. she is always able to help me.. even if she's not planning to start the homework now.. she is still able to try to help me.. really grateful for her..
and i need to buy some things which i need for my khao lak trip.. but dunno where to buy.. sian.. i dun wan my parents to pei me buy or buy for me.. for example.. they will restrict the type of shorts i really wan to buy.. like the colour of the shorts.. material of the shorts.. lenght of the shorts.. design of the shorts etc..
then wan to buy a bag.. but dun wan to tell my parents.. coz they will say i already have do many bags already.. hello.. i have like only 2 bags? is two really a lot?
next i went for a camp.. and i got to know some valuable things i guess i wun be able to learn from my school life.. but then parents think that i shldnt have gone for the camp coz they feel that the people in the camp are not good to handle with.. wth.. i dun care.. i just wan to go to escape from my parents' overly protective shield and learn something valuable out there on my own...
when i came back.. i felt very happy coz i had learn how to communicate with other people and seen the other side of the boys in the camp.. but wad i was given when i reached home was these crap... "u shldnt had gone for the camp.. u shld stayed away from those boys.. u shld have keep urself at an arm's lenght from them.. u shld not even befriend them.. they are bad pple etc.." wth? wad do they have against those boys? they are also humans! they deserve some form of respect from everyone! i was so pissed that i didnt bother talking to them.. coz i dun wan to scream at them..
there still many more things.. dun feel like elaborating le.. coz i not in any mood to talk about this anymore.. as i've said.. not in good mood now.. so this entry very depressing.. and hurting.. sorry to pple whom i've hurt.. coz i really need to a way to vent out my bottled up feelings.. if not i think i will really go mad from these emotions..
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