Wednesday, November 22, 2006
11:16 PM
haiz.. been cooped up at home rushing out homework like mad and resting like mad too.. have slowed my pace in doing homework.. like doing one maths paper in three days.. and nuthin else other than that.. haiz.. the rest of the time is spend on packing my stuffs.. watching television.. cooking.. reading newsweek.. reading newspaper.. sleeping late into the morning.. etc.. very relaxing rite? one word to describe my lifestyle now.. SIAN!!
other than doing these stuffs.. i also make something special.. and also thinking of some one whom i dun feel like mentioning..
i feel very weird.. and dunno if it even exist at all.. it's like a dream that i've awoken from my deep sleep.. it's like everything has return back to their place.. i dun feel anything at all.. feel really very... empty..
is it because we've gotten tired? or is it just nuthin to us? did i make the right choice? is my feelings wrong? did i think too much? am i too free to bother about these stuff? am i too curious about this relationship? am i regretting about us? am i thinking too much of u? am i loving u too much? am i cherishing u too much? am i overly protective of my own feelings? am i too sensitive about how u feel? am i doing too little of wad u expect me to do?
do u really 3^07 me like wad u had said before? do u really mean wad u've said? do i often affect u by my words and actions? do u 55!UU me at all? do u cherish me at all? do u really care bout my tots? do u Kniht of me often? are u too protective of my feelings? are u too protective of urs too? are u regretting bout this relationship?
are we too busy with our own lives? are we still together? are we regretting about our relationship? do we care bout each other? do we cherish each other? do we 3^07 each other? i've never ever say this to u before.. and i've say that i wun say it unless u say it first.. and i still wun say it even now.. those three words may be said many times in future.. but they will never be enough.. am i too greedy? all i wan to say is: you matter a lot to me... do i matter to u? how much do i matter to u? if i let go one day? i will feel sad.. what about u? will we be like wad roui had wished us? do everlasting really exist?
i wan to believe in everlasting love.. but i simply dunno how to.. teach me how..
man.. i sound so depressed.. ya.. am kind of down now.. but be back to myself asap.. i promise~
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